Always know that you're
Never alone and that you're super
Adorable and such a
Darling, so much so that it's just not
Ordinary, nor is it good, for you to
Repeatedly fall into the gloom that's
Always seemingly lurking.
Behind your pretty, tired eyes
Lies such a sadness, and,
Every time I see it,
I want to cry inside because
No one deserves to be that unhappy.
Slowly, I feel like we're losing you,
Only, it's not a physical loss, it's emotional.
My motherly heart can't take it.
Not only because you mean so much to us, either,
I just can't stand to see you like this,
Always brokenhearted, always hurt
Can't I do anything
I thought of you again last night
For what seemed the millionth time
And I cried...
I cried for a long time;
At times in quiet streams,
And sometimes in hard sobs
I cried for the life you could have had,
For the brokenhearted people you left behind,
For the fact that I lost you just as I had found you
Later, I reminisced and smiled,
Even though the tears still fell,
At the fun times we had together,
At the conversations so full of silliness,
At your inexplicable personality,
A personality that was once so full of vibrant pink energy and bubbliness
Now that energy is fading...
What was once a bright beacon,
Calling out to lost
Oh. My. God.
I'm laughing
I'm laughing,
But inside?
I'm dying
I shouldn't know
I should have known
But I didn't
And now I do
And now I'm failing
I don't know what to do...
You have no idea how much,
Just how much,
This is tearing me up inside
It hurts
And
Now?
Now I'm no longer laughing
But I'm still dying
Now you've just replaced the laughter,
Replaced it with crying
I don't know what to do
I think I love you .
I know I love you
But you've both sort of lied to me
Did you think you were saving me?
Did you feel ashamed?
Did you just think that I didn't need to know?